a quiet night..

It's 1 am now...

tired but still unwilling to sleep..

she's not back home yet....worried about her....

wonder how silly i am...why stay up just for her every night....

it's a quiet night without her around...

hope she'll be back soon...

AhhHHhh~

It's 1am!! and i still can't think what to wear!!

my first time xmas gathering with gift exchange!! (yes yes, call me mountain tortoise =.=)

and dinner at restaurant too!! (last time student, budget at coffeeshop can~)

keke. oh wells. hope i have something in mind tml.

or maybe this shows i need new wardrobe of clothes and shoes? =D

what a day?

going out with friends meant to cheer me up a little,

dragged myself out of house after a while,

worn bright chirpy colours!! pink and blue!!

still, my heart wasn't there

the longer i walked, the more out of place i am

where am i?

i really don't know.

it's a shallow bodycast roaming the streets of bugis

noise, people, laughter

all i could hear was echoes,

as though they belong to a background far away

hope things will be better on christmas eve. prays*

or maybe i will run away back home again.

argh

someone please lock me away in an asylum.

i am going crazy every day.

at this rate, i wonder what kind of mood will i have for Christmas dinner.

sigh...

it's official

we broke up....


this one will really take me damn long to recover..

i tried really hard this time...

i believed in her...

i gave my all...

ouch, my pain.

why does my heart feel so heavy, when my exams are over?!

i am supposed to be happy, dancing and yelling and celebrating!

yet muted and defeated, i walked home silently,

my bag, my solace.

the world is quiet around me.

i hear only my own singings, my whisperings....

i tell myself of all that happened today,

i laughed at myself,

why does this hurt so bad.

i feel an emptiness ringing for miles and miles away.