happy v day?

though i know you will never get to see this blog.

having you is more lonely than ever being alone.




happy valentine's day,

wondering....wondering....

I wonder,

do i look like i have a little dark cloud over me most of the time ever since you knew me?

like i really think so?

like life made a mockery of me and kept throwing challenges at me,

to test how far i would go,

and in the end,

i am always in this emo-y mood and look "fine". not a shred of happiness.

maybe that's how i became emotionally sensitive too?

is this the case??

can someone tell me the answer please??

SicK. Bah.

looks like finally it's my turn to get the flu, cough and sore throat combo!!

everyone in the office and family is being sick nowadays...want to siam also hard !!=.=

i so wanted to avoid it so that i can be well for V day,

and not be a sick headless chicken.

somehow, i have a premonition this flu is the same as the one i got before i go BMT?

i hear light wheezing...pray hard it's not some lung infection. GAWD.

i want to get my BMT over and done can? =.=

or is it a sign from the higher Ones that it is not meant to be.....

Hmmmm......