Tuesday, March 16, 2010

..........

wondering where i am leading myself to,

yet again i yearn for the light,

to nowhere it seems

the spiral maze of life

Thursday, August 13, 2009

crying....

why do i feel like this one will take me up to a year to repair the wounds, to salvage the little pieces of me left....i feel like someone took a shotgun and blasted my old wound open and dug out new ones too...

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

focus and move on.

let's see.

sad, devastated, hurt, disappointed, emotionally torn and struggling.

time to re-assess my priorities.

is it a sign to do something else? mmmmm....

where shall i devote my energy to.

Friday, February 13, 2009

happy v day?

though i know you will never get to see this blog.

having you is more lonely than ever being alone.




happy valentine's day,

Sunday, February 8, 2009

wondering....wondering....

I wonder,

do i look like i have a little dark cloud over me most of the time ever since you knew me?

like i really think so?

like life made a mockery of me and kept throwing challenges at me,

to test how far i would go,

and in the end,

i am always in this emo-y mood and look "fine". not a shred of happiness.

maybe that's how i became emotionally sensitive too?

is this the case??

can someone tell me the answer please??

SicK. Bah.

looks like finally it's my turn to get the flu, cough and sore throat combo!!

everyone in the office and family is being sick nowadays...want to siam also hard !!=.=

i so wanted to avoid it so that i can be well for V day,

and not be a sick headless chicken.

somehow, i have a premonition this flu is the same as the one i got before i go BMT?

i hear light wheezing...pray hard it's not some lung infection. GAWD.

i want to get my BMT over and done can? =.=

or is it a sign from the higher Ones that it is not meant to be.....

Hmmmm......

Sunday, January 11, 2009

letting go.

after such a long while,

maybe i know what i am supposed to do now,


jie, i know i been emo-ing for a while now..but

i am really appreciating that you have been standing by my side...

words sometimes are never enough,

but just the affirming presence suffices.

i know what i need to do now...

and maybe i will need my sisterhood to pull that 1st step for me.

too many things linger in my phone

but unwilling i am to press that "delete" button

for i am tormented and gutted

will you help me?